My silk painting in the style of my illustrator - Ariel J. Fulcher
Companion piece for “2 Worlds within & beyond Myself”
First I will share a poem that was published in 2019 by Ted Washington runs a long standing poetry open mic and publishing company, Puna Press.
He decided to create a poetry collection from all who attend his event. I was honored to have three pieces included in Palabra: open Mic. First time to have my work in print :-)
“2 Worlds within & beyond Myself”
My thoughts split in 2, I float in fluid time. How did I get to this space?
Tentacles of the “All Knowing” entity holds me gently in place, so I do not drift off into oblivion.
The Ancient One has seen it all, our stories & lives mingling together & reforming. The swirling currents in this vernal cosmic pool play with my hair, or is it an Ocean?
Swimming in quantum time I see bubbling up around me new Planets waiting to be explored. I enter time in a different way. I am able to explore the stars & make a cuppa tea at the same time. I can sharpen my blade, get ready for the battle within & tuck you into bed.
To be here & there at the same time is the ultimate in multitasking. The trick is to be engaged in each Layer of Time. Now to find out more of why I am here.
The quest at hand is to help retrieve the Pearl of Wisdom, the Soul of the Sword, to restore its full power. I had to tap into her strength & realize my own. The Mermaid Sword cut through my thoughts, releasing the pain & making me stronger for what needed to be done.
The Pearl’s lustrous pastel rainbow colors gave out a beautiful glow. It shimmered across its surface, the mesmerizing power rippled through the skull that it was encased in.
Later I realized, I was the Pearl, the Pearl is me. I do not know what the future will hold. I must press on to find out, even if I don’t want to.
©2018 Marjorie Pezzoli www.PezzoliArt.com
In 2018 I went to Palabra to see my friend Anna Zappoli headline. I had known her as incredible artist whose paintings always amazed me, along with her intriguing garden that I wrote about last week in Gumball #8. Seeing her perform spoken word poetry planted the seed for my writing journey.
The following week I found my daughter’s nearly empty journal from elementary school. I began to fill it because she could not. This is the hard part of my share, at 19 the ocean took my sweet Alyssa in 2013. Honestly, this is the hardest life whammy to ever deal with, and I have had plenty. So how did I cope with losing my daughter who was also my best friend?
Answer - Love of family and friends along with “The Creative Process”
Another way is a shift in thinking, her departure date I now consider her Rebirthday
I have been a silk painter for decades along with other art forms. Writing became my new way to heal. Then I needed to find a way to connect with my daughter, and have continued adventures with her.
2016 is when I first realized I needed to become a badass superhero for myself, and needed a pinup of my alter ego - Mayon. Ariel J. Fulcher brought her to life. www.artstation.com/ariel_fulcher Instagram.com/Ariel_J_Fulcher/
It has been 10 years of me exploring the cosmos with my girl, now so many adventures that I need to finally start sharing. Grief is a weird rollercoaster to say the very least, why it has taken me this long to write.
I still go back and forth on what format to choose, graphic novel, chapbook series, or a hybrid project. The Cosmic Gumball is in the very beginning of my storyline, why I decided to use it for my Substack newsletter. It gives me the flexibility on what I will share, remember you never know what will roll out.
No matter the form, this the title:
The Mayon Chronicles: Amera’s Cosmic Return - Mayon’s Unchosen Destiny
Her story, my story shall be told. . .
I need to get thoughts out of my head onto the paper, still not easy, now you know why.
Alyssa is also why I am so drawn to writing haiku, short, sweet and to the point, just my girl.
Til next week - Marjorie
with friends - we laugh - we cry - and we laugh again
Wow...your poem paints your coming through your grief journey. "The quest at hand is to help retrieve the Pearl of Wisdom, the Soul of the Sword, to restore its full power. I had to tap into her strength & realize my own." What a quest to realize! And, out of it you found your reflection in an amazing superhero and a way to connect with your daughter! This post is so multifaceted....your sharing of the loss of your Alyssa, the finding her journal and writing, your poetry, your silk painting, your superhero and graphic novel and this space....it is truly.....divinely, cosmic! Powerful! Yes, all shows us the strength of your alter ego....you ARE a badass superhero! I am so glad you decided to start sharing....that my own grieving heart found your newsletter! Big, BIG (((HUGS))) ~Wendy
I’m so happy you became a badass superhero for yourself and began sharing your talents at large. My heart wishes it did not emerge from grief.❤️
Always looking forward to what you share next.